Dentists....

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I had to get a filling today. And I was absolutely bloody petrified, because last time my dad got a filling off this dentist she drilled into his tongue by mistake. But they're the only NHS practice in my area of Sunny Essex, so we were stuck with them.

But actually, she was much nicer than the last dentist who had to give me a filling. She was really gentle with the needle, which is difficult cos it has to go through scar tissue from the various operations to my mouth. My last dentist used to just ram the needle in and it hurt like buggery, but this one made it almost painless.

She did amuse me, though, by saying 'if you want me to stop, just say so' and then filling my numbed mouth with dental equipment. It took me a good few moments to work out that I wouldn't be able to say anything even if I wanted to. But it was all ok, and it didn't hurt. In fact, it still doesn't, although I hate I hate I hate local anesthetic. Mebbe I won't be saying this after it's warn off, but currently I'd rather take the pain. I've had dental treatment done without anesthetic before, and I will never do it again because good GOD is it painful, but I still hate the feel of local anesthetic.

Probably the worst thing about being in the dentist's chair for me, is that my automatic reaction to a) fear and b) pain is to giggle madly. Which really isn't good with a drill stuck in your mouth. I was really struggling not to laugh the whole time, which I suppose meant I had something to think about other than the godawful drill noise.


I was also thinking about the total pointlessness of adrenalin and the fight or flight reaction in most circumstances that I've ever encountered. Running away from the dentist ain't gonna help in any way, shape or form. So all the hammering heart achieves is making me feel like shite. Also, long years of singing on stage mean that I've taught myself to control my breath when when I get a rush of adrenalin, so for me, instead of automatically making me out of breath, sheer and utter panic just makes me focus on my breathing... takes it out of my subconscious and into my conscious control. Which again, doesn't help with the dentists in any way at all. Having to actively remember to breathe while staring up the dentist's nose is not at all useful.

Anyway. Anesthetic is wearing off now, but pain has not yet kicked in. Which is cool.

Comments

[dyddgu.livejournal.com]

Yay for evolutionary hangovers...
Hope the pain isn't too horrid when anaesthetic wears off *hugs*

[opportunemoment.livejournal.com]

Aww. My brave little bunny rabbit. *pats you on the head*