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[anotherusedpage]

Ok this is just Jessie having another 'what the hell am I doing here when can I go home why did I even want to go to uni in the first place moment' and being all attention seek-y and wanting you all to tell me it's going to be ok.
Which it is. I do know this. But... gyah, how am I going to get through another two and a half years of this? Fucking 20th century narative technique fucking fuck. Fucking friends and their fucking love lives fucking fuck. Fucking lack of sleep fucking fuck. Fucking chapple choir fucking fuck. *snuff*
Fuck.

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[uberwald.livejournal.com]

Ok, I can tell you it's all gonna be ok (and it will be), but what I think would really help would be if you read the random drabbles that me and Rosemary just generated cos they are amusing and may distract you from your woes.

Failing that, have a *hug* from one who survived uni :)

[funnynamehere.livejournal.com]

It could be worse, you could live with a collection of dull, inbred, messy little fucknuts.

Still, at least 1) I get to move out within about three months and 2) I like my course.

Chin up! x

[anotherusedpage.livejournal.com]

I do like my course really. I love my course to pieces in the moments when it's all going well. I was just having a moment. Which hasn't yet completely gone away, but...
Anyway. Nk you for the cheerful thoughts. They were just what I was after
xx

[opportunemoment.livejournal.com]

... sweetie. I'm sorry. It's going to be OK. It really is. I promise, faithfully. Really-o truly-o with knobs on. I don't know what 20th Century narrative technique actually is and I can't stop your friends being fucked up but I can come and give you a great big hug tomorrow. And I can be on the other end of a phone. Or msn. And I promise to let you go to bed from now on.
Love you. Love you loads and loads and loads. And then some.
xxx

[redfireborn.livejournal.com]

You'll be fine, I promise. And then, in a couple of years, you'll look back upon your time there, and you'll say it was one of the best experiences in your life. Not that I know, but I'm sure it will be that way.

*lots of hugs*

[herringprincess.livejournal.com]

sheesh. i know. sometimes i wanted to call up my old r.s. teacher and say 'WHAT THE FUCK WERE YOU THINKING? WHY DID YOU THINK I'D LIKE IT HERE? WHY DIDN'T I JUST GO TO A NORMAL SODDING UNIVERSITY WHERE I HAD LOTS OF FREE TIME? WHY DIDN'T I JUST GET A JOB?' i read an article in a student newspaper once which said an oxford course was like vimto drunk straight from the bottle instead of diluted. it also said when you leave, you miss it like air. this isn't quite true. i miss those mornings when i'd wake up and just work solidly through sheer interest, break for lunch and have a great laugh, and do something thoroughly silly at the evening.i don't miss essay crises :-) i do miss my friends, but i don't miss the way friends neglect each other when they're really busy, which is lots of the time. but you know, im trying real life, and im going back to academia, so it can't have been all bad :-)
you'll be fine, it'll all be good. it probably is already since this is quite a time after you posted. hope everything is all good now and it remains so, mostly. what am i on about? pah i don't know. im in a funny mood today. don't mind me. im off.

[anotherusedpage.livejournal.com]

Vimto straight from the bottle. That's it exactly.
And yeah... essay crisis not over yet. I've only written the first 150 odd words of an essay due nine o clock tomorrow morning (it now being midnight).
But hey. It's all good. When it's done it'll be over for this week. And then there's only another four weeks left of term.
Short terms are a blessing. A necessary blessing but a blessing nonetheless.
And yeah, thanks for the vote of confidence, and for letting me know it's possible to survive intact.
xxx

[herringprincess.livejournal.com]

oh the other cool thing is, essay crises get way easier with practise :-) though i guess the practise isn't that great.....
(by the end i was doing 3500 word essays in 3 hours. in the middle of the night. i rock. :-P )

[anotherusedpage.livejournal.com]

Am I right in thinking you read Theology at Oxford? Did you do it with Philosophy? A friend of mine (not on LJ, unfortunately) is thinking of applying for Theology and Philosophy, and I don't know anyone here who can answer her questions, so I thought of you. Would you mind if I suggested she contacted you? I don't think you have an e-mail address up on your bio page, but I could give you hers. If you don't have the time or don't want to, just say, and I won't mention it to her.

[herringprincess.livejournal.com]

i am indeed philthe (when people make that joke often enough it starts being funny i swear...) and perfectly happy to talk about it. i can put her in contact with people who still do it if she prefers. my email is herringprincess@hipplanet.com
:-)

[lucy-lupin.livejournal.com]

Well, uh, this is going to sound really awful, but I read this when I was having an it's-not-too-late-to-go-to-uni thought and these kinds of posts make me glad I'm doing a GAP year. *adopts primary school teacher voice* "So Jessie, thank you for sharing."

Seriously, good luck with the essay and good luck to your friends with their love lifes, for your sake :D

[anotherusedpage.livejournal.com]

Gap years are well worth doing. Glad my whinge had a higher purpose ;P