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So. Wrote and then deleted last night a whingy post about the fact that I HATE not knowing what I'm doing, that neither Birkbeck nor my employers had been in touch, that I was really hoping to have earned some money by this stage in proceedings, seeing as I got this job months ago, that the CRB check people are bastards, that I just want to start work etc etc etc.

This morning Birkbeck got in touch and I have a place. Part time Opera studies. It's only one evening a week, so it doesn't actually fill my time next year. It doesn't help the fact that I have no money. But I do feel better about things.

Will phone my employers soonish and check they've not forgotten about me.

Am probably going to have to look for another part time job, although I don't know yet because I don't know what my hours are going to be like with Markfield. If it's only a couple of evenings a week or less, though, I'll need something else to do with my time. I really don't know what. Two lots of care-type work would probably just be too exhausting. I'd apply for front of house jobs, but evenings are out because both job and course involve evening work. I wouldn't mind doing something admin-y especially if it was somewhere vaguely worthwhile, arts admin or charities or the like, but they all seem to want experience. Could try bookshops, I suppose. Or I guess I'll just have to find a temp agency to sign up to. Although if anyone else has any bright ideas, I'm happy to listen.

Think I'm going to have to put off applying to conservatoire until at least the late session, in February. I don't currently have anyone I can use as a musical refference, and I wasn't happy with how I did at the Birkbeck auditions - it was fine, but if it'd been a Royal College audition, I wouldn't have got it, it wasn't polished enough. And the people at Birkbeck gave me the 'you're quite young for a singer' talk, so... perhaps another six months. I just... I don't want two years of this not-quite-knowing-what-I'm-doing thing.

Also had a look in passing at the literature MA on the open university, not for any time in the immediate future, but as a just out of interest.

"The dissertation is the culmination of your MA in Literature and tests your ability to present a sustained academic argument in clear, logical prose. You are not expected to make an original contribution to scholarly knowledge but you must demonstrate a reasonable grasp of work done in the subject area, with a thorough survey of primary and secondary sources. "

Hmmm. Isn't that what I just did for my undergrad degree? Suddenly my degree magically turning itself into an MA seems kinda justified.

Will be singing in Saturday evening's prom. They wanted volunteers for a last-minute choir. Orlando Gough music, Carol Churchyll lyrics. How could I possibly not go with that? It'll be on BBC radio 3 at around eight o clock if anyone wants to have a listen.

This does mean I won't be in Oxford this weekend, and then next weekend I'm away again. If I showed up mid-week, would anyone be around?

Anything else? Think I'm now caught up on flist, but if anything's happened that you think I should know about and don't, lemme know.

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Congratulations on the place! ♥